Friday, May 15, 2009

Lost

I am now lost beyond any ones control. . . . . . . .I guess I knew this for a long time, but I was too scared to admit it.

I lost myself, in everything. In all the lies I told, in all the pain I cause in all the stuff I dream. I don't understand anything, anymore. When I was younger, I was so sure of myself, so strong. But as Time and Reality seeped into my life I slowly started losing myself. I don't understand society, we bound ourselves by so many laws we wind up losing our individuality in order to fit in. I don't understand the laws of reality. Why can there only be this one world? Why can there only be this one dimensional plane?

I don't know what to believe in. I have seen things, with my own two eyes that I cannot explain. I have done things, with my two hands that are too gruesome to recall. I have thought things that no person should think of doing.

I lost myself in all that I want to be true. All that I want to happen. All that I am willing to open my mind, my eyes and my heart to. I lost myself within the laws that govern our society. I lost myself in the laws that govern reality.

Now all I can do is wait and wander. I can only wait, and hunt, to try and find myself. My pieces are scattered, they are tiny and beyond recognition. will you be so kind to help me look for them?

-Yuuka
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  1. Werewolf MoonMay 15, 2009 at 2:55 PM

    Being a werewolf i deal with everykind of "losing myself" the first thing in "finding what's lost" is finding a place where you feel truly comfortable and not akward at all. Be that your room, with your friends, for me it was the forest.

    Next: Find a PERSON you can be totally comfortable with, anyone, even a dog or a cat or something.

    Finally: You just have to totally relax and spill out every problem you have to that person in that place, spill every single thing that worries you. You'll feel better i swear, just give yourself the chance to be yourself. You'll come back, it worked for a hell spawned werewolf, it will work for you

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  2. DannyMay 16, 2009 at 8:31 AM

    Yuuka-
    Werewolf moon gave you some advice so i will, too. She was right with what she said. Surround yourself with people who understand you and accept you. There's always that one person who understands you most, for me it was Werewolf Moon. For you it could be a close friend or relative.

    -Danny

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  3. AnonymousMay 16, 2009 at 11:02 AM

    Hi Yuuka...
    It's umm Haruka-(M&m plus the vanilla Z)
    And we all deal with losing ourselves. If we keep the distance between the world and us a little closer; a lot could get done. We're all only human. The thing that separates us though; is our thoughts. It's fine to feel like the world is to big and we are to small in it; I was wondering about that myself yesterday. But think about it; every grandmother has helped bring forth 2 generations of change to this world that needs it. Every mother supports her child with love and care far more powerful than any harsh words. It is normal to feel sometimes you have done to much and brought to much pain. But; there's a point where the guilt goes to far. We forgive you for anything you have done. My friend thought I wouldn't be her friend because in defense she killed someone with her own 2 hands. No; I understood and I wasn't mad. My sins; were voluntary on the other hand. They are so bad that to this day I have NEVER told anyone. I dont say I ever will. But; I DID forgive myself. You need to also. Remember; you are not lost if someone is there to catch you. You even say that yourself. Trust us; we're ALL here to catch you if you fall. And remember the balance; though you have lost yourself in the bad things youve done and the confusing things you dream. Remember the GOOD things youve done; the TRUTH you've brought to fellow lost friends; AND the LOVE we've felt from your friendship. There are ways you've helped us that is unexplainable because some words are never spoken; but remember like you were there for us we will try to help find you. And you needa help to find yourself. Just remember we're here to help

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