Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Story Start?. . . . Maybe

Okay, this is something I've had written in one of my thousands of books. I'm thinking of making it the start of a story. . . . .not too sure yet.

-Love
My body is shaking as my heart rips in two. It urns for the happiness that both of us seem to crave. I not only betrayed you but I betrayed all that I stood for. I had betrayed all that I wanted to become. I ruined everything. I, the stupid cowardly fool, destroyed everything. Everything I stood for. Everything I wanted to be. Not only that but I destroyed the thing most precious to me. You. I killed everything you thought of me, everythign you thought I had become. I am worthless. I deserve nothing that you had given me. I deserve nothing. I am nothing. I dont want to be anything anymore. I dont want to be something that people care about. I dont deserve it. I deserve to be trash. I am trash. People should just throw me away, and not even look at me. Just put me in the garbage were I belong. I am a stupid, worthless, lieing and deciving piece of trash. I dont deserve you. I dont deserve what I have. I dont deserve what I abuse. I belong in a ccage with a chain around my neck. I have told myself this so many times. I told myself how much I dont deserve this, deserve you. I wish I didnt exist. Because if I didnt you wouldn't have to go through so much pain. I wish you didnt have to put up with my selfish, lieing me. I wish I could disappear. I wish I could me earased from peopels lives. I wish I could just fade away.. I wish I could be more than what I really am. I wish I was who I always wished I would be. I wish I was able to slip through my cracking insanity.
-Hate

Okay thats it. I'm not sure what it should be about but I have some Ideas. I want more of them from whoevers reading!!!!!!!! So please express your opinion, good or bad. And please dont copy it and say its yours.

-Yuuka

2 comments:

  1. i think this person should learn to believe in hersef more as time passes; it will be more optimistic towards the end so people feel betr about themselves
    she should learn that she is always good enough for what she has...friends shouldnt cost anything...

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  2. -nods- i agree totally.
    friends don't cost anything... seriously... Yuuka you can't pay me to be your friend or anything else... that's one of the reasons why I wouldn't let you pay anything for me including the rye playland trip

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