There are a lot of people who say that the hardest part is starting over. That the hardest part is beginning something new. I say the hardest part is the end.
I am ending one part of my life and beginning a whole new chapter. I'm starting from scratch. I won't know anybody, and I'll be in an unfamiliar place. In short, I'm going to a new school and I'm moving. This is most likely the last day I had to spend with everyone.
I'm shaking as I right this because I'm in pain. And annoyingly enough, in near tears. It pains me to know that I'm leaving everyone I love and treasure deeply behind. I've moved and changed schools before, but I was never as attached to other places like I am this one. It hurts me to know that after this my closest friends are leaving too. We're splitting up and carrying on with our lives. I know this might seem selfish, but I wish that everything could stay the same. That, this day, would never end.
I guess, I've grown so dependent on them to be there for me. But trying to tie my friends down would be like trying to capture the air. I know for a fact, even if we could stay together, if we could stay the same, they would choose to go on. They would choose to leave, because they would know and want better. They'd want to grow and live their own lives.
I know theres email and such but, is that really the same? Would it be the same as talking to them in person, seeing them laugh or smile? I dont think so. . . . . .
But, somethings gotta give right? Nothing can stay the same forever. If it did where would be the adventure? What would we really learn? If we'd learn anything at all.
In the end, I know things need to change. And if it didnt there would be no point. There would be no point in having friends, we wouldnt learn anything from each other. There'd be no point in doing anything, because there would be no adventure. So, even though, the end is the hardest part for me, I know that there will always be endings, and with each ending is a new beginning. All I can do is live in the moment, and make the most of the time I have right now.
Love,
A sad Yuuka
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Don't worry yourself. I know you're sad, it must be hard. Email and such isn't the same, yes. But think of all the happy times you spent with them, and keep them in your hearts. You never know, you might see them again someday.
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ReplyDeleteI'm sorry. I wish I could say that I understand, but I don't. I've never moved. My friends have though, and thats hard too. Just try to make the best of it.
ReplyDeleteWith love,
Lily